Samantha M Menard

September 7, 1990 ~February 22, 2004

 

EVERY MINUTE, EVERYDAY

YOU'RE FOREVER ON MY MIND

I AM FOREVER SEARCHING FOR ANSWERS

THAT I KNOW I WILL NEVER FIND

 GOD PLEASE TELL ME WHY

YOU TOOK MY LITTLE GIRL FROM ME

SHE IS LOVED SO MUCH HERE

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SEE

 MY HEART IS FOREVER BREAKING

AND NO ONE KNOWS MY PAIN

I CAN'T CONCENTRATE IN MY LIFE NOW

I FEEL I'M GOING INSANE

 I WISH I COULD OF TOLD HER

EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK

AND TO SIT AND WAIT FOR ME

FOR WHEN ITS MY DAY

Love Mommy

                                                         

OUR DARLING SAMMY
 
YOU'RE A SPECIAL ANGEL
THE GREAT LORD SAID
AS HE GENTLY CARESSED THE BLONDE HAIR
ON LITTLE SAMMY'S HEAD
YOU NEED TO GO TO EARTH CHILD
TO SPEND SOME TIME YOU KNOW
I SEND ALL MY ANGELS THERE
TO HELP THEM LEARN TO GROW
THEN SAMMY IN SADNESS
SLOWLY BOWED HER HEAD
AND FROM HER EYE A TEAR FELL
AND DOWN HER CHEEK IT SLID
DON'T WORRY NOW CHILD
I WONT LET YOU STAY TOO LONG
ILL BRING YOU BACK TO HELP ME HERE
YOU'LL HARDLY KNOW THAT YOU'VE BEEN GONE
YOU'RE MY SPECIAL ANGEL
YOU'RE THE APPLE OF MY EYE
THEN GOD WIPED THE TEAR & GENTLY KISSED
OUR SAMMY GOOD-BYE
I'M BACK SAMMY SAID
AS SHE CLIMBED UPON GOD'S KNEE
AND GOD SAID SEE I TOLD YOU
YOU WOULDN'T BE LONG AWAY FROM ME
AND THEN GOD NOTICED
ANOTHER TEAR IN SAMMY'S EYE
GOD ASKED WHY SO SAD SAMMY
WHAT IS MAKING YOU CRY
IM GLAD IM BACK SAMMY SAID
BUT GOD IF YOU MUST KNOW
WHEN YOUR ANGELS CAME TO GET ME
I DIDN'T WANT TO GO
I KNOW THAT YOU NEEDED ME
AND THAT I'D BE GONE A SHORT WHILE
BUT WHY COULDN'T I HAVE HAD
A LITTLE LONGER TRIAL
THEN GOD & OUR ANGEL SAMMY
SLOWLY WALKED HAND IN HAND
AND HE TRIED HIS BEST TO EXPLAIN
HIS GREAT AND MARVELOUS PLAN
NOW GOD I DON'T MEAN TO ARGUE
I UNDERSTAND YOU NEEDED ME HOME
BUT I LEFT IN SUCH A HURRY
NOW EVERYONE IS ALL ALONE
I DIDN'T LET MY PARENTS KNOW
HOW MUCH I LOVED THEM SO
IT HAPPENED ALL SO QUICKLY
HOW WILL THEY EVER KNOW
MY PARENTS FEEL SO CHEATED
AND IN A WAY SO DO I
NOT GETTING TO SHARE MORE THAN WE DID
HOW CAN I TELL THEM WHY
GOD SAID IM SORRY SAMMY
THERE'S A MESSAGE YOU NEED TO SHARE
BUT YOU NEED NOT WORRY ANYMORE
I'LL WATCH OVER YOUR LOVED ONES THERE
I'LL SEND THEM LOVING COMFORT
AND I WILL HOLD THEIR HAND
EASE THEIR SENSE OF LOSS
AND HELP THEM UNDERSTAND
I'LL TELL THEM THAT YOU ARE PURE
AS PURE AS HEAVEN'S GOLD
AND I NEEDED YOU VERY MUCH
TO KEEP HEAVEN FROM GETTING COLD
SO LONG SWEET SAMMY
WE WILL MISS YOU SO
NOW YOU MUST SIT & WATCH FOR US
WHEN IT'S OUR TIME TO GO.  
 
LOVE AUNT TRACIE

 

 

Sammy's Story

Let me first start by saying that this wasn't the first time she had meningitis. The first time in 1997 she was 7 at the time was brought home by the principal of her school so sick to her stomach. Mind you when she left that morning she was fine. I kept an eye on her all day, she would sleep then wake up and run to the bathroom. After a while I was worrying about her getting dehydrated so I took her into emergency. After a couple hours she started getting a sore neck so immediately they did a spinal tap, sure enough it was meningitis. She spent 7 days in the hospital.
 
  In 1999 one ninth I heard my daughter crying I got up and found her on the bathroom floor getting sick. I again panicked thinking the worse (meningitis). I again brought her to the hospital where they diagnosed her with viral meningitis for the second time. this time though we caught it early and she only spent 3 days there and had to keep an IV line in her arm for the next 3 days to get treatments.
 
  The day before Samantha passed away everything was fine, she had went with her grandpa to work came home just before dinner. She had been up since early that morning. I work midnights and this particular Saturday night I was going into work for some overtime. Samantha had asked if she could go with me because her sister had done it before. Finally I told her yes because she wanted to prove to her older sister that she could stay up all night and see what I do at work. Everything was going fine she was helping me around the office and playing games on the computer. At around 5am she started to get a really bad headache, mind you she has had a history of migraines. I gave her a Tylenol and had her lay her head down on the desk to relax. A little while later she started getting sick, and there was no way that I could leave work till the next shift came in at 8 am. I did what I could I made a bed for her with jackets on the floor and she slept for a bit then woke up and got sick. I took Samantha home and brought her to her room and laid her down. I told her to get some sleep and if she still felt bad when she woke up I would take her in to the hospital. Samantha had been up for close to 24 hours so I thought it was probably from lack of sleep as she had never stayed up that long before. I kept checking on her till I laid down on the couch to get a few winks of sleep while my husband went skating. My oldest Chantel kept checking to make sure she was alright this was around 1pm Sunday the 22nd of Feb. When my husband Heath got home he went upstairs and went to check on her and found her not breathing, that was the most horrifying yell I have ever heard in my life was him telling her to wake up. I got on the phone with 911 as my husband did CPR and waited for the ambulance. They worked on her for what seemed like hours. They got her ready to be taken to the hospital. A police officer too me there to sit and wait to see if they could bring my little baby back. As soon as the doctor came in I knew she was gone. The following day I was making arrangements for her funeral which was ever harder then knowing she was gone. Later that night we found out that it was bacterial meningitis which just tore me apart even more because not once, but twice she had fought and won against it and then all of a sudden with no one knowing she passed away in her sleep.  On Oct 6th 2004 I received the final report it was called ACUTE PURULENT BACTERIAL MENINGITIS.

 

Artist: Martina Mcbride
Song: In My Daughter's Eyes
(James Slater)

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

 

Samantha and her older sister Chantel. Samantha is the blonde with blue eyes. This picture was taken a few months before she passed away. Chantel misses her so much they were inseparable.

 

Meningitis Information

Heaven Bound Angels

 

One More Day

Diamond Rio

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me,
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

Chorus

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do. With one more day with you

Chorus

Leave me wishing still for one more day
Leave me wishing still for one more day

 

Daughters

I still remember the time I met Chantel and Sam

That little blonde cutie, boy what a ham

Bev and I hung out and watched a hockey game

After that night my life just wasn't the same

Bev called the girls out to come and say good bye

Chantel gave me a quick hug and said bye bye

Sammy wanted to be picked up she hugged me so tight

And only let go when I promised to come back the next night

The girls and I afterwards had grown so close

I then had two little girls that I loved the most

Years have gone by, and with all the good times we've had

I may not have been their father, But I am their dad

I've been told that when you love someone set them free

But when I see the pain in my wife's eyes I wish it had been me

Sam is her baby girl, and it hurts her so much

Not to see her, hear her, or feel her touch

They say that the pain of losing a child will ease as years pass

But the love that I have for my children will forever last

love daddy

Sammy

 Please show me the way to go

with you not here i miss you so

Everyone tells me to be strong

How? when a part of my strength is gone

I miss you so much, I don't know what to do

I only hope you know I loved you

You know I was very proud to be your dad

knowing that you are not in pain anymore

does make it not hurt so bad

Although you are gone I love you still

Just so you know I always will

Love daddy

 

Please show me the way to go
with you not here, I miss you so
Everyone tells me to be strong
how? when part of my strength is gone
I miss you so much, I don't know what to do
I only hope you know how much I loved you
You know I was very proud to be your dad
knowing that you are not in pain anymore
does make it not hurt so bad
Although you are gone, I love you still
Just so you know I always will

Love daddy